the beauty of your absence

The following wideawake wisdom-shots are from an interview with Jean Klein conducted by Stephan Bodian.  I found this interaction, quite simply, amazing. It covers all the ground from the initial apperception of the impossibility of a separate ‘me’-self, to the exaltation of ultimate liberation. Please follow the link below the quotes to read the entire transcript. Gratitude to the Nonduality Highlights for sharing this treasure.

Liberation means to live freely in the beauty of your absence.  You see at one moment that there’s nothing seen and no seer.  Then you live it.

For me, the point of meditation is only to look for the meditator.  When we find out that the meditator, the one who looks for God, for beauty, for peace, is only a product of the brain and that there is nothing to find, there is a giving up.  What remains is a current of silence.  You can never come to this silence through practice, through achievement.

First you must see how you function.  And you’ll see that you function as somebody, as a person.  You live constantly in choice.  You live completely in the psychological structure of like and dislike, which brings you sorrow.

If you identify yourself with your personality, it means you identify yourself as your memory because personality is memory, what I call psychological memory.  In this seeing, this natural giving up, the personality goes away.  And when you live in this nothingness, something completely different emerges.  Instead of seeing life in terms of the projections of your personality, things appear in your life as they are, as facts.  And these appearings naturally bring their own solution.  You are no longer identified with your personality, with psychological memory, though your functional memory remains. Instead, there is a cosmic personality, a trans–personality, that appears and disappears when you need it.  You are nothing more than a channel, responding according to the situation.

Enlightenment – being understanding – is instantaneous.

Once you attain this enlightenment or this current do you then exist in it all the time?

Constantly.  But it’s not a state.  When there’s a state, there is mind.

Even when you give up the last object, we still remain in the duality of subject and object. You’re still in a kind of blank state, and this blank state itself becomes an extremely subtle object.  In this state, it is very difficult to give up the subject – object relationship.  Once you’ve attained it, you’re locked into it, fixed to it.  There’s a kind of quietness, but there’s no flavor, no taste.  To bring it to the point where the object vanishes and you abide in the beingness, a tremendous teacher or exceptional circumstances are necessary.

~ Jean Klein, interviewed by Stephan Bodian

Source: Undivided Journal

a nothing that is utter plenitude

This Unlit Light - Lotus by Bahman Farzad

 

Sitting on the magic zafu this morning pondering some words from Nisargadatta that were included in one of this week’s Nonduality Highlights.  Words about wanting nothing.

Going deep into the significance of a wantless life.  And deeper still.  Falling feather-light below the limn of language, down down into the body’s beatland.

 … wanting nothing from God or the world, desiring nothing,
expecting nothing, projecting nothing …

 
Feeling the skin on the back of my scalp tingle and loosen.  a contraction in my stomach – nausea, it wants to heave – then release and pins and needles cascading down through the gut.  Then a sense of porosity, no idea where my body begins and ends as it streams out into the quantum soup.  Eyes, these eyes, the eyes of mankind, the universe perceiving Itself, ears, nose, same.  Brain feeling like a flower opening (I’ve never felt my brain before).  Hair standing on end.  Shockwave after shockwave.  Tsunami of tears.

a flowering, a beating, a breathing
a nothing that is utter plenitude

 

That is all and It is all.

 


Image by Bahman Farzad


nonduality and the mutating brain

A couple of days ago Jerry Katz – one of the editors of the online Nonduality Highlights – invited responses to a post from a blogger called ‘Tabby’.  Tabby’s had a gutsfull of words about nonduality and has reached the conclusion that it’s worthless when the circumstances of one’s life present pain, torture and deprivation.  This was what came up here, so I sent it off:

Understanding something (anything) causes an effect in the structure of the brain.

J Krishnamurti talked about a mutation of the brain – a re-ordering of the cells.  Wei Wu Wei used the word ‘apperception’ to refer to this inner reorganization of the contents of consciousness.  Science has a new name for it, and a whole new research arena: Neuroplasticity.

In the case of nondual understanding, it is not that the outer circumstances of one’s life necessarily change, but one’s relationship to them certainly does.  Pain comes with the human package.  How it is experienced depends on the brain’s response, and all brains are unique.  (Why would a Novocain response be invalid, pray tell?)

What triggers nondual apperception?  Six billion answers and counting.

The only thing these answers appear to have in common is a threshold at which one drops speculation, abandons hope, and is angry/depressed/disappointed/disgusted enough to give up.  And then?  Give up.

And then?

Give up.

(You will die but it won’t kill you.)

For this brain it began with a gift out of the blue.  In the midst of suicidal agony, Grace came.  And left a calling card.  I’ve posted a recollection on my (very) new blog:

an uninvited koan

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ps:   “I conclude that non-duality is not so much wrong as it is useless.”  Excellent!  Tabby’s whiskers are on the right twitch …

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