Enza Vita writes with refreshingly ruthless clarity on the myth of “awakening” as an experience, a state or some kind of esoteric attainment which will guarantee unshakeable bliss and the end of all one’s undesirable failings and foibles . . .
“I know I am still not awake, and I have a tremendous longing to be free.”
Are you so sure you are not awake? Are you sure you understand what “awake” is?
Why do you think that you are not awake? What is this I that is in this unenlightened condition?
All questions contain and perpetuate certain assumptions that we see as the boundaries in life. While thinking that you are not “awake,” you are believing that you are somehow lacking something. That is what is played over and over again in your mind, and it causes you great suffering. Do not fall into that trap! Go to the root. What is it that is aware of this statement? Realize what is at the root of that experience of not being awake and it will free you from the assumed limitations.
You are already free; however, this is a freedom that has never known bondage and so cannot even be called freedom. This freedom doesn’t come from some action to attain it, but from the realizing of a freedom that has never been constrained. As the seeker you feel bondage because of your belief in a separate I, a separate ego, and this ego imagines that this freedom means a freedom to do whatever it wants.
Real freedom is liberation from the bondage of the ego. When the concept of an I goes, the question of freedom is resolved. Then you are free to be in harmony with what is, as it is.
You already are this freedom pervading everything and everywhere. All boundaries and limitations are in your imagination only. Like the space in a room, you are already free. Just like the four walls cannot contain the space within it, so the body-mind cannot contain awareness unless awareness is imagining itself imprisoned.
You see clouds in the sky, and they may pass in front of the sun, but does this change the nature of the sun? Perhaps the clouds are signaling a coming thunderstorm, but does a storm change the nature of the sun? Your thoughts and feelings are like these clouds. They sometimes seem to obscure the light of your inner self, but they do not change it. First see what you are. Understand your true nature. Then you see that what dances in front of you does not affect you at all. Focus on that sunlight, and not on the clouds!
Source: Enza Vita’s Newsletter. Sign up for it at http://www.enzavita.com – where you’ll also find information about her new book “Always Already Free”.